Turn on the heat

Oh! Summer, I am waiting for you even though I live in India. Call me mad or what you like. But please come soon. I can sneeze no more. And I cannot wait to have ice creams without having to worry about congested lungs. 

Passive

Boredom and the absence of any activity has left me rather irritated. The flurry of social lunches and dinners have only burnt a hole in my pocket and made my clothes tighter. Neither of the results induce any kind of positive feeling. I went for a play last Sunday which turned out to be pointless; I was looking forward to Rockstar, which also turned out to be useless. My constantly decreasing motivation for photography has made me close that chapter as well. And I have spent almost a whole quarter like this....

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Rockstar has good music. It has the Delhi winter and a few shots of my college. Ranbir Kapoor has done a rather good job.  He has acted well, he is looking good, and has given the movie the little strength that it has. But the actress, the dialogues, and the narrative were so ordinary that they managed to kill the movie for me. Completely! And I am yet to see a Hindi musical which doesn't try too hard to connect the dots. 

Sadda Haq should not even have featured in the movie. It brought down the intensity of the song simply because it was placed out of context. 

Few Hindi movies play with guilt, and I really wish that Imtiaz Ali had picked someone who did not just have a pretty face. Nargis Fakhri... aargh!!

I had similarly looked forward to Mausam in September. I did manage to appreciate it far more than Rockstar, but it certainly left me yearning for more. In fact, the romance in the movie completely engrossed me. The cinematography was brilliant, Shahid Kapur looked good, and even Sonam Kapoor was tolerable. But I cannot ignore the fact that the movie was quite stupid in parts. And utterly idiotic towards the end. But I think I can watch it again merely because of the innocent romance. It was nice. 

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On a different note, my mind has been thinking of a mute poem the last few days. When life and everything around you seems poetically strung but it silences you in a strange way that you cannot tell if it is good or bad, positive or negative; just something unsettling, something worth your emotions.

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If dinners at Taj and meetings with some people seem as worthless as they do, I wonder if power is an aspiration worth nurturing and taking stress for. 

........now hoping to make the last few weeks of the year useful. 

Where's Goofy?

My obsession with myself and my mind doesn't need any testimonials. But the lack of something fun/exciting/not drab over the past few weeks has made me indulge in this by giving up on over an hour of sleep. Now tell me if you are offering me some money to let you click a picture of me too. No? Ok. 

P.S. - I have 21 GB of photographs on my system. #justsaying

10

1. I went back to driving a car.

2. Met my newest blogger friend :)

3. Saw the sun rise.

4. Took Kanani around for good chaat in Delhi.

5. Wrote something worthwhile after really long!

6. Did some brainstorming too!

7. Deleted useless movies and music from my system. Swetha, still hold you responsible for that 9 GB of unsorted music! Grrr!!

8. Got back to the job hunt after a good 10 days!

9. Met my old love, brown Telugu Hyderabadi no-more-skinny Mansi!

10. Got tarot card reading done for fun. The results made me regret going for it!

The Smile-Flashing Night

Thanks to a highly corny mood and corny music...

Bijli to girti rehti hai,
deewane to roz paida hote hain,
tumne kaun sa teer maara
agar tumhein pyaar hua!

:P

Excitement Varieties

So I was out of action for the past couple of days thanks to a bitch of a virus that has infected my body. I bow to the gods for at least I am able to look at a computer screen for more than five minutes today. I still curse the virus which shoots the temperature to insane levels even after all these days, but whatever! At least I am not singing, 'I feel it in my fingers, I feel it in my toes' (of course, pain, not love! :-|) anymore. So, Calpol rocks!

The pain had made me lose my mind to the extent that I was uttering stuff about cigarettes to my mom when she was talking to me about tea. At 4:00 a.m. This, when I do not smoke. And you thought I was exaggerating when I said I was sick!

I also shivered unto (almost) death in office today in spite of my sweater and shawl. No, the air-conditioning was just about fine. Only I was too sick and had to head home early. :-|

As of now I am using my Gmail for official work. There is obviously a new label in place. And how does it look? *raises right eyebrow with the tongue peeking from the right side* (and you thought I have standard expressions) It's a white background with red font. Wondering what's exciting about it? Those are our corporate colours, duh! You would know I am excited about this stuff if you're on my Gtalk. The Group logo has replaced my 'hot' display picture. Or you would also know I am excited about this stuff if you've known me for a bit. These things are always exciting, man!

I am not sure if I have mentioned this already, but I am coordinating the Delhi Half Marathon participation of my company. It's after really long that I am at the organising end of something. And for the first time for something as important as this (after all there is employee engagement and branding at stake :D). That too alone, because bosses are busy with other stuff. I am extremely excited about it. Hoping it goes smoothly.


So, there's work-related excitement, and there's recovery-related excitement. Happens.



I still remain a hypochondriac of sorts. Everybody still laughs about it for some reason. The doctors point to my lifestyle for all the diseases I have in my head. But I still remain a hypochondriac of sorts.

Randomness Before Random Exams

He sat by the table, waiting for his order to arrive. In the distance, he could see her walking to her class. Her words were still ringing in his ears. He never thought that somebody he considered his best friend could also talk like that. She looked in his direction unaware of his presence there, and he almost ducked his head into his just-arrived plate of noodles, to avoid contact. But she did not seem to have noticed him sitting there. Just like he expected!

Later, when with friends, she still seemed to be awkward. But she had said that nothing had changed between them. He knew better. Everything had changed. She had completely withdrawn herself. In a snap.

But they still managed. Somehow. Another chance. And then there was another chance before they finally started respecting each other. Or so they thought.

Everyone Seems to Remember Green Day

I am slightly bored, slightly irritated, and slightly angry. The boredom initiates this post.

I am finally placed for the internship. It is a big relief. It looks like the kind of organisation I'll enjoy working for. Hoping for the best!

Most of this month got spent with crazy illnesses. I'm quite tired of it now.

The weather has been extreme for the past few weeks. Mad heat in the first half of the day, and stormy rains in the second half. My kids will really not see the tiger na? Or even winters?

Classes are already over for this term. And exams are still two weeks away. I do have projects to complete, but this is a long time span to kill. People are planning Goa. I am SO tempted!

I listened to Radio Mirchi's Tapas Sen and Big FM's Tarun Katial talk about branding. And they were plain brilliant! I also bought a tee that reads, 'It's not true that I had nothing on... I had the RADIO on!' And it has Marilyn Monroe's picture on it. :D

I also attended a concert of Rahul Sharma's. He was great with the santoor. But his team member who was on the tabla was even better. I can't believe I cannot recall his name. He was trained by Ustad Alla Rakha and Ustad Zakir Hussain. Out of the world!

The relationship with Sahil has evolved a bit. We've grown up. It's nice to have him around.

My roommate is going crazy. As of now she is in South Africa. Hope she's having a good time. She's the biggest jugaadu girl I know.

Oh, I did finally write a story for that culture studies assignment. Who was I kidding when I said I'd paint? :) That assignment was fun. The man's classes were fun too.

And half the time I am ill because I do not sleep! BYE!

Coffee*

Some social gatherings can be a little more than awkward.

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You die of glee (maybe like you die of embarrassment?; only in a much happier sense.)**when somebody uses the word 'diva' for anything associated with your looks. I mean, just imagine a non-fashionable, geeky, I'm-too-lazy-to-give-a-damn-about-my-looks woman being at the receiving end of that! Of course, this description is of the perception people have of me. I would look a lot worse if I did not give a damn. But while we're at it, I'd add that a second someone said that my hair looked like I was there for a shampoo commercial shoot.
So, fuck the single strand of gray. My hair still have it in them!

You must have figured, unless you're talking about my eyes or my smile, it's the hair that take me to cloud number 9.

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Mind games suck. They just suck! I never knew that it was in your own hands to complicate things in life. If things moved my way, I'd keep it so much simpler. But then I am not an isolated homosapien. Wish I had like-minded people around (in this respect).

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Mera budday aa raha hai! :D And it's not a religious dry day this time. Ha!

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What is with people and their pointless attitude? Somebody enlighten me.

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I learned of a new misconception some close ones have about me. It's amusing, and at the same time it hurts a little to figure that someone who is really close also has an almost blasphemous misconception about you. But that's the price you pay for being so closed.

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*Because it's the first word that came to Ruhi's mind when I asked her for one.
**I am unsure of the punctuations here. Help if you want to, please.

I never have interesting titles

Continuing with the popular...

# I have started reading The Kite Runner.
# I watched Love Aajkal.

Continuing with my usual...

# I spent some time at Costa and had my Earl Gray tea.
# Living with a leaky, sneezy nose again.

Doing something new...

# Had caramel popcorn. Terrible!
# Visited the popular German Bakery and Toons ( You could have put this point under the first one too. But I love symmetry more).


I wonder how some people here spend such a lot of time in the city. I've moved out of campus so many times this week that I am completely exhausted now. Different matter that I am going again tonight - Lynn is in town!! :D But this is it. I am not stepping out again for some time now! Will only be leaving the city for a few days. :D :D

The Week That Was

Oh, it's been a week already since I last wrote. My MiG's somersaulting in the sky.

What happened since last Thursday?

Delhi got more humid.
I saw blood.
The creep admitted he is a chauvinist. Not in that many words, duh.
I extracted the last drop of perfume from the bottle.
I met Akash, Michelle, Deepak and Rohit.
I also left my sunglasses at Akash's place.
Visited a fancy library in South Ex.
I had a Sub.
Also met nanu, nani and Daksh.
Lived through insane voltage fluctuations.
Went through my school scrapbooks.
Had Swetha over for a night.
Had lots of ice-cream.
Somebody asked me out. :P
Saw LOADS of UPA in the papers.
Watched Delhi Daredevils lose a game. :-/
And there was lotsa laziness. :)

In-class production

A tag I came across y'day...

1. My ex... which one?

2. Maybe I should... write cheeky responses here :D

3. I love… men with scars on one of their eyebrows

4. People would say that... they do not assume anything about others

5. I don't understand why people... put stories on PPTs.

6. When I wake up in the morning... I hope that my roommate is in a mood to get ready first.

7. I lost... elections last month

8. Life is full of... jackasses you come across every day

9. My past is... juicy

10. I get annoyed... when I cannot itch the scratch

11. Parties are... not fun without Bollywood

12. I wish... to have a perfect life

13. Dogs... are nice to me

14. Cats... are moody. Not in the same way as me. Hmph.

15. Tomorrow... I have to work on more submissions

16. I have low tolerance... level for all kinds of incompetence that I end up experiencing every day

17. If I had 10 million Pounds... I'd get out of this place and do my own thing for the rest of my life

18. I'm totally terrified... of climbing heights

19. The one close to me is.... nowhere around

And this.. and that

Photoshop is so not what I thought it was! I still don't know more than 10% of what it has to offer, but it's pretty crazy. It is fun when I realise I still am fairly good at it, but the whole deal is that I barely ever sit down to do it. In all these months, not once have I used it to process a picture. It's always something new that I am taught and expected to create on it. Quite a fascinating thing.

Something else that is really cool is the fact that my room is like a complete home now that I have joined the beds and there is this warmth about it. I am getting too comfortable like this. Wonder what I will do when my roomie comes back next semester.

Recently did something that is probably not a nice thing to do for a sane person, but it was a big boost because it was kinda like an assurance that I really do not take shit from random people and do have the capability of giving them a piece of my mind. Yea, I did need some reassurance on that front. I felt unbelievably happy blasting this guy I cannot tolerate. :D

Another thing that is really annoying is the virus brigage that has taken over this campus. Every frikkin pen drive and system is infected, and now my cursor is jumping to whichever spot it likes whenever it wants to. And my anti-virus is not detecting it. Somebody help!! :-/

A proud but not-so-proud record that I set recently was of stepping out of bed and reaching the hostel lobby in nine minutes flat (bath included!). :D

Not having a roommate has its disadvantages also.

Doggies on campus have started doing what some of them near my house did. Nap around 8-9 pm, and bark away to glory 1:00 am onwards.

The Ganesh Utsav on campus saw a cultural night a couple of days back. I was supposed to sit and watch for 30 minutes, and I ended up spending 3 hours and 30 minutes enjoying it. Next day was full of guilt, but it was LOADS of fun. This campus has never been more entertaining.

A new visiting faculty has come to teach us electronic media for a while. I have never seen a bigger, more entertaining freak in my life! The man is kinda old but his energy is unbeatable. Has been a student and also a director of FTII, and his world is extremely fascinating. Awesome classes!

Social change classes are still a little hazy. I understand that their purpose is to give us a different perspective on things we tend to ignore. But some of the people who come and talk about issues have such an extreme leftward bent that they cannot even give a balanced view. I wonder if it is a good idea to shove opinions down people's throats.

Today I slept while standing. In class. As in, not slept slept, but eyes were shut for long enough to wake with a jerk. New feat achieved.

I think I should go sleep. See you in a while.

More WTF thoughts

4:00 a.m...
Oatmeal biscuits...
Smartass mistake biting in the back...
Not much progress...
Google vomiting out the shitiest results on the first page...
Irony - CRISIS management !

And smartass me was busy formatting every line that I wrote/CCPd in that case study I can't use. UGH!!

WTF thoughts

Even though I am still quite hyper about the things I was hyper about in the last post, I am taking this, and have been taking many such, moments to 'take a break'. It's been reeeaaaaally long since I worked on a deadline. Nothing new about being up past 3:00 a.m., but almost new working at this hour. Although, in the midst of my ascribed status of 'hyperventilation', I still think it's good that this is happening. Really need to get into the groove. And that is possibly why things seem to be harder than they actually are. Hmm...

WTF

It's one thing to have too much to do. And completely another to not know how to do any of that 'too much'!

*collapsing* :O

Just not liking it!

I finally attained enlightenment on that superbly irritating IBIBO - don't be a balti campaign thanks to a friend. It is supposed to be competing with Photobucket.com ! My god! I am a user of photobucket, and still it never struck me. I wonder if ANYbody got it. :-/

I also watched the second half of Om Shanti Om today. Farah Khan should be shot in the head. It is not even brainless entertainment. It is plain brainless stuff. And yes, horrible horrible lighting. :-/

Rannvijay used to be cute five years ago. Whatever makes him dress so wannabe-ly now?! :-/

Why the f*** is it so humid here in June?! :-/

That perfume shop opposite Keventer's in CP now has all the perfumes I may like. Yes, Nike's there too. And several hundred bucks cheaper. As of now I want to hope that it's fake stuff. If not, then I am definitely shopping from there in future. :-/

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He's left. I cannot even say I don't know what to do because there is nothing I can do. For the nth time - change sucks! IT-JUST-SUCKS!!
Two reasons why I need to get out of here asap - 1. Otherwise I will go mad thinking about him. 2. Otherwise my already enough bloated-up body will explode.
But again, there is nothing I can do to leave earlier. Now I am just hoping I leave without further delay.

Tomorrow is Friday, the 13th. I have never really bothered about it in the past. I wonder why I'm itchy now.

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I love Radio Mirchi for the creep called Sud that they created. Not as much for his jokes as for the numerous wonderful moments he gave me.

.... .... ....


Why do deserts miss the rain?

Yellow

Autos

DTCs
Paint contrasted with black on pavements
Traffic signal poles
The STD booths
Traffic police's barricades
My personality according to one of the applications on Facebook
The lights on my router
The background on my cellphone's screen and the alert light on it too
The colour of folders on the PC
My specs' case
The sacred colour
Yash Chopra's mustard fields
Myoril capsules
Summers
Friendship
Coldplay
Dirty fellow
Some people's hello
The kurta that I wear every second day

and of course, the sun!

Post inspiration:

I am just bored.

Bullet Again

One more time...

# I am braver when it comes to killing insects that pose a threat.

# My hair are quite long now.

# I can process my B&W pictures much better now.

# I taught someone how to make a parantha. My family laughed.

# I hate cats a little less.

# I want more piercings but this time I am scared.

# I can change my nosepins myself without a problem now.

# I could not reduce my phone usage after several efforts.

# There is a new category of people that I don't like - the forever excited kinds. Or those whose writings suggest so.

# I am reading a lot now! Of course, this is relative to my previous standards.

# I have started labeling and archiving emails.

# Also making better use of filters in Gmail.

# I don't think I will ever stop getting easily flattered. Or irritated.

# Got closure on some important issues recently.

# I took MUCH longer to write 200 posts on this blog. The last blog saw it in a flash. This is no. 203.

# I am still fond of blabbering.

# My calendar is the most artsy and the most craftsy piece of work I have ever done.

# I still HATE HSBC. The account shall be shut down soon.

# My nasal spray is going to expire soon (sorry, didn't have anything better to write :P).

# It's official. Pearson Education is unprofessional.

# I fear the thought of soon having to give up all the addictions I have right now.

Bas!

From the mind-numbingly bored mind

In the presently uneventful life, a tag is reason enough to update the blog. From Junk Text to Fuchsia.... listing six random things/habits/quirks carries on.

# I have reached a point where I name my pictures' folders by date. There just are so many of them on my drive now! And I still don't have back-up. :O

# I have also reached a point where I have started dreaming about being 100% fit and feeling good about it.

# In the recent past, I have lost an unbelievable amount of silver from my precious collection. It just keeps dropping off me! :|

# I am growing up to see what lies between black and white. And understanding it.

# I accept and agree that Abhishek Bachchan is looking hideous in all his appearances nowadays.

# I enjoy sharing pictures on Flickr as much as I enjoy clicking them.

There. Done. I don't know whom to tag. If you're reading this and have still not done it, I tag you.