December 22, 2008

Some things are too personal to blog about, but sometimes those things start moving from the periphery and into the middle of the brain and leave no space for the stuff that would let peace prevail. This is where writing takes over the rescue operation. But what if you are deriving pleasure out of the unrest? The conflict in the head and the resultant speed in work are another conflict if you really look at it. Because the same conflict hampers efficiency at some level too. Madness. Maybe people are right about the psycho stuff.

Nothing: 6 months, 11 days - 1 day - and the cycle begins again. Did I mention earlier that there are some things that I do not like? And that there are some people that I love? Ok.




IBM had said, 'you must be beyond excited'. I was, as usual, unsure of the extent of that particular feeling. And when I saw the face, I wanted time to freeze. That rush was probably worth the wait. I can't believe the day is over.

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I wonder why people think it is 'cool' to not do the work they should/are expected to do. How does evading work become 'working smartly'? Or is it that I fall in the category of 'idiots' who actually take on the responsibility of getting the work done? I really wonder. What I think is being professional and responsible, people think is stupid. So I also wonder how stupid opinions can be.

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Something new - I was out till 12:45 at night in Delhi. For a party. With dad at home. A very scary and exciting thing that I managed to pull off. It was an alumni meet (dinner and dance) some of my batchmates had organised for the alumni based in Delhi. It was sad that very few people from my own batch turned up for it. But I had to begin with the 'networking' business. I suck at conversations if they are for the sake of it. But no excuses for PR professionals. So I did manage to talk to a couple of people at the meet. A good conversation with a couple of them too. Overall, a fairly decent experience.

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A long conversation with Avantika made me realise that there are very few things that excite me today. And it was certainly not a very exciting thing to find out.
Or maybe it is only small inconsequential things that excite me. Isn't that much better?! :D

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It's been too long since I wrote about Shady here. I don't know if it is unhealthy or something to be so obsessive and madly in love with someone... but I enjoy it and it is one of the best feelings in the world. There still isn't anything that beats how his laughter makes me feel, and the comfort that a conversation with him provides. 'Dying to see him' is just an inappropriate phrase to express how I feel today. It's been six months. The countdown is going to be too darn long.

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The temperature is quickly dropping, and the back is losing its little strength too. Some things plain suck.

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I slept like a log today. That is one experience that beats all else. :D

Just not liking it!

I finally attained enlightenment on that superbly irritating IBIBO - don't be a balti campaign thanks to a friend. It is supposed to be competing with Photobucket.com ! My god! I am a user of photobucket, and still it never struck me. I wonder if ANYbody got it. :-/

I also watched the second half of Om Shanti Om today. Farah Khan should be shot in the head. It is not even brainless entertainment. It is plain brainless stuff. And yes, horrible horrible lighting. :-/

Rannvijay used to be cute five years ago. Whatever makes him dress so wannabe-ly now?! :-/

Why the f*** is it so humid here in June?! :-/

That perfume shop opposite Keventer's in CP now has all the perfumes I may like. Yes, Nike's there too. And several hundred bucks cheaper. As of now I want to hope that it's fake stuff. If not, then I am definitely shopping from there in future. :-/

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He's left. I cannot even say I don't know what to do because there is nothing I can do. For the nth time - change sucks! IT-JUST-SUCKS!!
Two reasons why I need to get out of here asap - 1. Otherwise I will go mad thinking about him. 2. Otherwise my already enough bloated-up body will explode.
But again, there is nothing I can do to leave earlier. Now I am just hoping I leave without further delay.

Tomorrow is Friday, the 13th. I have never really bothered about it in the past. I wonder why I'm itchy now.

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I love Radio Mirchi for the creep called Sud that they created. Not as much for his jokes as for the numerous wonderful moments he gave me.

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Why do deserts miss the rain?

Cricket, Movies, and More

As most of you know, I am part of a large Punjabi family. Lots of bhaiya-didis, chacha-chachis, and so on. Last weekend we had a lunch at my place. Apart from all the fun talks, the day's IPL match was also being followed. I made a request - please let's all go watch a match at Feroze Shah Kotla. So the boys discussed, one of them made a jugaad, and they decided that they can get hold of some corporate box passes for the match scheduled for 17th May. I repeated, please take us - the girls - along too. "Ok ok, we'll see." And well, whadyaknow -- the pigs didn't want to take us along. 6 of them! Could not take three girls with them. And nobody had the nerve to say no in our face either. Because then we'd obviously have tried to get tickets on our own. Can't blame some of them actually, but certainly the ones arranging stuff!!
So I was cursing left, right and center since Friday morning. Come Saturday morning, and the girls were obviously bummed and bugged because of the whole thing. And oh, they were all going to gather at my place first, and then head off to the stadium. :-| So, we had to do some thing!! The most convenient - lunch and movie. I wonder why it's summer break all over and no good movies around. We finally managed to find a show at Satyam, Patel Nagar for Khuda Ke Liye. And I am glad I went! The movie is almost a must-watch. Except for a couple of people who did not know how to act, and maybe the pace of the movie, everything else was brilliant. The story, the research that must have gone into it, the cinematography, the direction.... everything!! [Aside: I was noticing the lighting too. :P And it was SUPERB!] The bad thing on the part of the theatre though - they had turned off the subtitles. The Urdu was obviously hard to comprehend. One of the actors was super-cute too. :) On a more serious note, I wish more people have the inclination to watch it and to understand the issues that the entire world is faced with because of some loony brains (Yes, can't find a more frivolous adjective to describe them). It's sad.

Coming back to the original story. At 2 in the afternoon, when it was hot like crazy, I made a wish - I hope it rains and pours and pours in the evening. :P And when we stepped out of the theatre at around 7:30 p.m. - muhahaaaa!!! Rain gods were listening. And what good were the six buggers if they couldn't even get the home team to win. Yes, I'm Punjabi, but Delhi's home. So I was supporting the Daredevils, and not Kings XI. Anyway, a highly useless loss. But I am just happy that the Knight Riders also lost their last match. :D

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One more thing that I need to write about is the Metro again. I wrote to them after my last post about them. They took time, but they did respond. And again, very politely and sweetly. I was rather impressed. And the work's finally been done. Thank you very much.

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AND again, my cartoon boyfriend is the best cartoon in the world. The teddy-est person ever!! :D :D :D

Shady Happiness

I have been breaking into a song every couple of moments for the past few weeks now. Whatever a conversation may be about, I'd have an instant song ready to go with it. Of course, the sur-taal still choose to remain miles away from me, but thankfully words don't desert me now like they used to earlier. There was a long phase when I had completely stopped singing. Never even hummed along with a song. This was, of course, post the sabbatical from the stage (yea yea... I could sing once!). Anyway.
Coming back, the non-stop singing. From romantic to comic to corny... I sing them all. From the Dev Anand-Madhu Bala ones to Rakhi Sawant and the gang. Yes, the domain remains Hindi. Can rarely happen with English songs. Thoda haath tang hai, you see.
And if I think about it, the only reason I can associate with this behaviour is a happy state of mind. Sure I still crib and sulk. Small things never cease to bother me beyond belief either. But, I am happy. And I do not think I need to type out the reason.

Monday Matters

Doing stuff stuff here and stuff stuff there, but I am still bored. (Sounded like quack quack here, and quack quack there, here a quack, there a quack, everybody quack quack :D) Never mind.

From a happy and fun Saturday, to a messed up Sunday, and an aimless Monday... I'm riding a strange ride every day. Taking each day and each moment as it comes has never meant more to me. And for somebody who's a planner by nature, trust me, it's not a funny game. But the rules say that I can't complain, so I'm trying to keep that at bay.

Let's talk about the Monday. Got out of bed quite late as usual, moved about the empty house for a while as usual, fixed myself some breakfast after noon, and then got a message from a friend that she was coming over. Reason enough to GET UP and clean things around. The room and the self, both. Some fun as expected, and a Fun Flips + Sprite party! Fun Flips are still for five bucks! They were selling at the same rate when I had my first class party in school. Anyway. After a couple of hours, an idea struck. One reason why Sunday was a mess was that I was not able to go out for a shoot. I badly wanted to. So we thought that we'll please the restless soul today. And we (that's just me, btw) headed towards Humayun's Tomb. I'd been there once before - again, for the first class picnic, I think. All I remembered of that place was mosquitoes and flies in the lawns.
But, it is one of the most beautiful places that this city has. Without a doubt. Better than Red Fort, Qutub, and all of that. Very well maintained, and a delight to look at. I spent about 1.5 hours in the complex, and then too it was my camera's battery that told me that we should leave. I was literally happy-jumpy on my way out of the place, caught an auto and headed home in the chill.

On days that I do the above mentioned, the rest of the time is spent in front of the computer, going over and over and over all the pictures. So I have been doing that for hours now. The fun element of it is hard to explain.

Today, I am also listening to Rainbow at 1:00 a.m. after a very long time. It only used to happen in the good ol' days prior to exams in college. Amiya might want to vouch for that. :D Now I don't know if those days were good or are old, but that was also another fun element in the then boring nights of development economics.
But man, 102.6 and 104.8 are playing some incredible music right now. Billy Joel, Hoobastank, Nickelback, Bon Jovi, Starship, the list is going on and on and on. I'm having fun. Indian Ocean and Jhini were being fun in the afternoon too.

It's also somebody's birthday today. :-) Wishing a bright, happy, and peaceful year ahead to my dearest Shady.

Shall wind up now. There isn't even much to write anyway. Leaving with a picture that I clicked today. Could not relate to it any more at this point in life, but I think it's something that always holds true.

Life... is a long and bumpy ride. Gotta keep moving!

On A Happy Note

Another year has come to a close, and this year I do not have my customary New Year post because I had made it on my birthday itself, and there isn't really much that I have done in the last four months for me to make a new list.
But what I do want to write about are the things that make (and have made) me happy. Firstly, I think it's time I acknowledge the camera that I own. I have not liked it since I've got it, but I can only imagine what life would have been if I didn't have it. Well, if I didn't have it, I'd have actually had a camera according my preferences, but let's just count the blessings, shall we. So, it's a Sony T100. And if there's one good thing that I can confidently say about it is its macro lens. It does a killer job...each time! Or maybe it's just that macros are my thing [:D]. Whatever said, the camera really helps me there. And thanks to that, I have managed to capture a few shots of one of my most favourite things in the world...flowers.

I have actually clicked over 2,500 pictures in under five months. Well, perhaps some of them have been absolutely random, and some I have lost forever, but I have had So Much Fun!

Adding to the happiness has been Shady. I keep mentioning him, but the mentions are usually never enough. He's been the staff that I've clung to in these difficult months, and the best part is that he's never made me feel that I'm clinging. He's a darling!

And of course, ALL the friends who have entertained me, and have been entertained by me (and this is the entertainment wala entertain, and not jhelne wala entertain).

Well, I think this is pretty much it. And I think I should keep revisiting this page, because my bad mood days should see how beautiful things are around me. :-)

Now I shall make a move. My brother's come to pseudo fight with me after a very long time. :D Tada!!

Real Trains This Time

A plan that was being postponed for some time, finally got finalised on Saturday, the 8th. I was gonna board a train the next morning!! So, the next morning, I was on the Kalka Shatabdi to Chandigarh. According to my family, mera 'train mein baithne ka sapna poora ho gaya'. I was recently cribbing about how it had been two years since I last travelled by train. Although, it was not exactly the kind of fun I'd have liked - the one of travelling in a coach where you can open the windows. That's the real fun!! Anyway, I wasn't complaining.
We were going to Chandigarh to meet two of my most favourite oldies. We were returning the same evening. But this time by bus since there weren't any train tickets available.

I went to Chandigarh after almost nine years. Clearly, I didn't remember much of the city. But I fell in love with it yesterday. It almost seemed ideal - a lot like Delhi, and minus the chaos and rush of this place. What more can you ask for!

I clicked a lot of random pictures, and was happily stunned to see how clean the railway station and the bus station there were. They mop the floors there! Even though the same places in Delhi are relatively much larger and see much more traffic, they still have no reason to be like the kind of urinals they are!! Ugh.

The return journey was a little towards irritating. What with terrible traffic and a HORRIBLE movie being played in the bus. Why don't people donate money than making such shit movies like Dhol? It was nothing more than 2.5 hours of noise. Bloody! Thank god for AIR FM - it saved me from a lot of that noise. And also gave me a lot of Beatles, Billy Joel and so forth as added bonus. :-)

By the time we reached Delhi, I could not feel my neck. It was unbelievably stiff. But I'm glad we got Volvo tickets, otherwise I would not have been able to feel the rest of my body either.
Oh, I could not believe the number of cars parked at Murthal dhabas either. Crazy stuff!

Got home by 10:00 p.m., went through the usual night routine, and crashed soon after.

It was an incredibly beautiful weekend I had. Saturday was very different from Sunday, but it was just as much fun...although, Shady blamed me for having dropped a pastry (MY pastry)...while it was actually an accident. :( Hmph!

But like it's said, mulla ki daud masjid tak. I'm back to solving maths questions today. :D

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Ok, I am majorly itching to write this post in all caps, but I really want you to read it so I won't do that. I am on top of the world. And that is because I have a supercool boyfriend (yes, I took his permission to write like a 15-year-old).

Do you know what an acrostic is? I did not till a few moments ago. Go dig up the meaning and then read this.

Lockjaw is a disease, but I think I almost got that after reading this. I could not, and still almost cannot believe it. I think I am touched, but right now the disbelief is overpowering. Daily reiteration of feelings in common words suddenly doesn't seem to be enough. I have nothing to say, nothing to write....just have an ear-to-ear grin. This is just insane! :D

I'm so happy!! :-)

P.S. I hope you know what my real name is. :P