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The fall internship is due in a month's time. Somebody damn the systems (or the lack of them) because I still do not know where I will be going. And I am f r e a k i n g out! I know it is the beginning of the horror called final placements, but it kills. :-/

There isn't really much happening these days for me to update this space. Except that I have no money on my phone. Or no hot water in the shower. Or no peaceful sleep in the nights. Except that I suddenly lost weight and fell sick. Except that I never thought I was capable of choosing to paint over writing for a culture studies assignment. That I have not read the newspaper in more than a week.
But I have bought a hot cushion cover with lotsa colours in it. Fuchsia too. :D

But one of the many things that are on my mind is the Delhi Diwali air. I cannot wait for a whiff of that smell. I know there's a month left for this too and I'm probably living ahead of times (no pun intended) but I am excited about it. I am! See.. there still are things that excite me!

Last year, I was busy winding up assignments, celebrating an anniversary, and gearing up for my first tryst with an NGO.
The year before that, I was busy falling in love, and healthily losing weight. Mad CAT stuff was happening on top of it all.
And the year before that, Pa was going for a surgery, I broke my back, and I was at the threshold of some losses too.
The year before that? I only remember my rangoli. I make one every year. Bad back or not.. the floral rangoli has become a religion. I love doing it. Every single year.

Yes, all the girly stuff is very much there.

I think this is about it for now. I shall let you know the moment somebody decides to give me temporary employment.

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I wonder why people think it is 'cool' to not do the work they should/are expected to do. How does evading work become 'working smartly'? Or is it that I fall in the category of 'idiots' who actually take on the responsibility of getting the work done? I really wonder. What I think is being professional and responsible, people think is stupid. So I also wonder how stupid opinions can be.

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Something new - I was out till 12:45 at night in Delhi. For a party. With dad at home. A very scary and exciting thing that I managed to pull off. It was an alumni meet (dinner and dance) some of my batchmates had organised for the alumni based in Delhi. It was sad that very few people from my own batch turned up for it. But I had to begin with the 'networking' business. I suck at conversations if they are for the sake of it. But no excuses for PR professionals. So I did manage to talk to a couple of people at the meet. A good conversation with a couple of them too. Overall, a fairly decent experience.

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A long conversation with Avantika made me realise that there are very few things that excite me today. And it was certainly not a very exciting thing to find out.
Or maybe it is only small inconsequential things that excite me. Isn't that much better?! :D

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It's been too long since I wrote about Shady here. I don't know if it is unhealthy or something to be so obsessive and madly in love with someone... but I enjoy it and it is one of the best feelings in the world. There still isn't anything that beats how his laughter makes me feel, and the comfort that a conversation with him provides. 'Dying to see him' is just an inappropriate phrase to express how I feel today. It's been six months. The countdown is going to be too darn long.

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The temperature is quickly dropping, and the back is losing its little strength too. Some things plain suck.

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I slept like a log today. That is one experience that beats all else. :D

Back Off!

It does not necessarily have to be true that I'm the only confused person around. Some doctors are too. No offense, they're well qualified and all of that, but how am I to lose weight if I am telling you that I cannot even walk? I'm asking for a cure for the problem that's causing me trouble walking, and you're saying that you lose weight and your problem will be taken care of. Also, you can take this medicine which might probably increase your weight. Phew!

Ok, let's calm down. We need to take more medicineS for the next one month. Physiotherapy did not help after all. Landed me up in that creepy machine that does the MRI scan too. It was a funny experience! It had three basic phases - one where everything is quiet, and you just feel cold air floating around you. The second is when there are all kinds of sounds being produced - I noticed that some of them went like zoing zoing zoing, and yippee yippee yippee. Please don't mistake them for something funny...their intensity was quite creepy and these were only the underlying sounds. All was fine until this phase. Then came the one where everything started vibrating. Whoa! Vibrations PLUS the noise. For a moment I felt like pressing the emergency alarm because the gear that was around my head and ears was closing in on me. And the man there had warned me of every experience I might have inside, but not that. But it's official, I am a brave girl. I did not interrupt the process. Also, I was only slightly claustrophobic, and I hear that that much is normal for anyone who gets that test done. So I'm fine. Yay.

Went back to the doc after getting the test done yesterday. One thing's for sure...I am completely sick and tired of WAITING! Bloody! For every goddamn thing I'm being made to wait so much nowadays. Anyway. So I got lots of tablets and capsules prescribed for the next one month. And it got decided that I will commit a random murder (of the first non-nice person that comes in front of me) if things don't get better.
Came back home to generally read up about my symptoms and the medicines on Google. Found a website with a forum only for people who have back pain. It was kinda amusing to see such a thing online even though I know that one can find absolutely anything under the sun on the internet. And people's signatures had their symptoms listed. Real funny stuff! :-)

Anyway. Got one exam left to go. Really hoping for it to go well. So wish me luck. And I'll see you soon. Tada!! :-)