I want to be rich

Two uber hot bags at Kudos today. One of them the happiest form of green. It was a degree hotter than what your imagination tells you. The other is what was gifted to me. I wanted both. BOTH!!
Someday I shall buy the functional AND the fashionable things together.

Store the gyaan for some other post, please.

Today I was on a flight that had a female pilot. I got some strange kick out of the situation. Yes, I AM still straight.
And does Air India have leg room or what! Loved it. The old air hostess aunty was a shock as well.
Btw, Terminal 1A at IGI will probably remember me for a while now. I am their Mortein girl. Yes, my buddies in my room need a heavy dose of it and I had decided to carry it from home. Authorities decided to not let me carry it in my hand luggage. So I was made to go out and put it in my other baggage. Yes, that bag had gone for boarding. So I went with a Mr Sharma - on the way explained to ten different uncles and aunties that I live in a jungle and Mortein is important - and finally succeeded. Then a new boarding pass, security check again, and a complete round of conversations with more security fellows who all had some distant relative or the other studying in Pune. One recently got placed with Birla. Incredible, innit? :) But I am just glad I had enough time to go through the entire drama.

Also, I have not had such a sore throat in ages! I sound like a duck and my throat has barbed wires inside. Not nice. :-/

I watched Singh in Kinng and was it fun or what! Go watch it if you can appreciate raw and loudPunjabi way of things. Or simply for the love of Akshay Kumar, man. He is just brilliant. And may I please inform you - PVR Cinemas are making truckloads of money from this movie. 45 minutes of screening ads between the scheduled beginning and actual beginning of the show. Beat it.

I had also watched Jaane Tu.. (yes, finally) last week. Dunno what the hype was about. Really don't.

Ok now I need to go. Another frikkin test to study for. Tada!

P.S. - This post was originally to contain only the first para. Therefore the title. But of course.

Dhishoom! :D

A new, asshol(e)ic instructor at the gym kept bugging me throughout my workout yesterday. I felt like punching him every time he came to check how many calories I was burning. Receiving trash for burning 105 instead of 120 calories, or being compared to an almost body-builder are not things that I can take. Whatever makes people think that they’re oh-so-smart!

Today I did burn those extra 50 calories and made it a point for him to see that too! But more than that, the sweat dripping off the edges of my hair felt kinda cool (and I do not mean literally). Ah. :P

Leaving the job is giving me time for this, at least.

Stretch Marks

I don’t like all the layers of tan on my arms.

I don’t like having people around me for 16 hours a day. But I think it is for my own good.

I don’t like the fact that I have a fucked-up back.

I cannot wake up even 15 minutes earlier than usual for my walk.

I am personalizing my workstation. The latest addition was my college calendar.

I am missing the Patel Chest bhel puri like crazy for the last two days.

I behaved like an 8-year-old when I necessarily needed to act my age.

Some mindsets live forever – I CANNOT see a red mark across any work I do. Especially when I work hard on something and the fault is not my fault.

I haven’t bought flowers for myself in months!

Hutch officially sucks!

My neighbours got suuucchhhh a cute dog. He’s tinyyy and all those words that I use for dogs but that don’t exist in any dictionary.
But they’re moving away this month itself.

I’m thinking maybe lots and lots of people should spam 104.8 FM station’s mail, etc and force them to change the name of their station. MEOW FM???? Radio station dedicated to women?? And then showcase women with whiskers in all hoardings?????

I really hope Pratibha Patil doesn’t become the President. I had no issues with her candidature but the Left had no real reason to highlight except the fact that she is a woman, and now everybody says that it’s ‘much ado about nothing’ if she said that veiling was used to protect Indian women against Muslim invaders. Dude, get your basics right before making speeches in public!

Auntie’s canteen has started stocking Melody. We love her!!

HSBC will claim that ‘you will forget all other banks once you start banking with them’. They’re right. Just that they’re wrong.

I told you that Abhishek Bachchan is losing it. The kind of reviews I am getting for his latest movie, I am not even feeling bad that I won’t get to watch him because I don’t want to spend on a stupid movie.

How can people have the capacity to repeat the same goddamn inconsequential/ non-funny/ spastic thing 10 times a day?!

Thank God for Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan and his music to shut my brain up!

I know I’ve lost (or never got) the art of understanding much of any humour other than sarcasm. Except sad jokes.

I’m already half hour into my 8-hour sleep schedule. And still awake of course.

So, bye-bye!!

Feeling Light

After four days of some heavy-duty going out/eating out my stomach started with its usual cribbing and grounded me for the next three days. So complete fun to complete rest, did it all in a week!

Apart from eating things that I probably shouldn't have, I invested time in pleasing my oldies and my dentist, watching some classics from Chashme Buddoor to Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikandar, trying to fix this bugger of a system that my pc has become and finally giving up on it, breaking my precious sun glasses, getting a new nosepin in a new colour, inheriting my uncle's camera with lots of accessories (till the time I get my own), clicking loads of pictures, fixing up driving lessons for myself, bidding farewell to a friend, getting presents from some people, singing and dreaming and so forth. It's been a good week. Last Wednesday night my feelings were bordering on wanting to burn up all the Micro Economics of the world, and here I am singing Dilbar Mere with Amitabh Bachchan today(:P)...drastic fluctuations pressure, tension and a free mind bring about!

And nothing much, really. Just enjoying my tiny little summer break. Have one more day of it. Excited. :D

B-O-R-E-D

This might be boring.

I am bored.

People are boring me.

Life’s become boring.

This stupid word keeps making a comeback.

You see, I am boring you too.

There is nothing new that I am doing/ did/ bought/ said/ thought/ tried/ blah and blah.

What I did do today was spend a whopping 200 bucks on getting some notes photocopied. 200!! Load of crap it is, I have to tell you. Precious money...I could have bought the silver earrings I’ve been eyeing for so long! Haye!

I thought one cat had littered in my backyard, turns out that another one did in my next door neighbours’ adjacent backyard. Talk about seeing (more) creepy kittens around! And NDMC only has a dog-nuisance helpline; nothing for cats. Biased fools!

My personal-bad-weather is almost over. I see green leaves popping out. There is a little less dust in the air. I am kinda happy. Of course, gonna have to live with the heat for many more months so we’re just avoiding that topic.

I am also wondering how the world would have completely crashed if there was no humour around. At least mine would have. So lots of kisses for all the people who make me laugh!! (May I put two more exclamation marks please?)

I dropped the receiver of my landline last night (for the nth time) and now it refuses to produce enough sound for me to be able to hear what the other person is saying. It has such a crippling effect! I almost don’t have a phone in my room!

Did you know that the 7:58 a.m. metro from Central Secretariat remains stationed at the platform for 5 minutes before moving? It is so unbelievably unsettling to sit in a train which refuses to move!

It also turns out that 3 hours is a very long time if you have to write non-stop, are feeling suffocated, sleepy, tired, puke-ish, and more! Ugh!
I just have 2 more exams left. :D
Sleeplessness can also make you act extremely drunk. Come meet me on the morning of my next exam, you’ll know. But people don’t appreciate any of it at that time. And they don’t even understand that I can’t help it. :-(

Been blabbering, have I?

Boring, is it?

Told ya, didn’t I?

Sowry! Or soury? Or plain sorry?

Ok ok, going.

Double Random Yay!

Yes yes...I know that you’ve noticed the change, but I shall still pronounce it. I’ve got a GREEN template!! Yay!!!!

And my dearest cutu Amiya, the creator of the college group on Facebook has made me an officer there and now I am called The Chronicler. Now isn’t that powerful AND fancy? It’s a different matter that I have a little bit of trouble pronouncing it properly. Kinda like a tongue twister. But yay!

So, double yay!

:D

Puppets and Paupers

Economics is back on the table! Not that it could or would have gone anywhere far yet...but yes, I am officially back to the grind. I wish somebody gave me an official datesheet too so that I could start planning stuff. It has been delayed enough!

So, with the subject coming back, day-dreaming is back too. And it’s quite annoying. I neither like it (‘coz then I get behind my ‘schedule’) nor does it lead to anything concrete...just (not so plain) dreams.
Hmm....dreamed a few nice dreams today.

Anyway!
I still don’t like sitting at home. Each day is a boring drag. My idle mind plays dirty games with my heart. And there is no one to talk to! What a pain!
Not forgetting (or not allowed to forget) that I instantly start putting on weight if I sit home.

So today was a day dedicated to rain, sleep and Menwhopause. Yeah, I got the bug from you know who (Ahem! I meant where). :P
Of course, there was a dash of trans-national corporations and poverty, etc. too. But just a dash of it.

Was just rambling for no reason...
Good night!

Please don't try too hard to link the title to my post. It's only because I've fallen in love with this song. 5 minutes and 10 seconds of pure bliss!

Taste of Paste

It’s cold and it’s strong. Leaves a weird feeling in the mouth and I don’t like it.

At Home...

I have been home for the last five days and I’ve spent time so uselessly after a really long time. At times it feels good to not do anything at all. Although there is always that pestering in the head to open some books! Even so.

Two of my friends’ brothers got married yesterday. And according to my calculations that have been happening for the last 6 years, my brother too should have been married by now. I’m still waiting.
Although, one of my cousins is getting married soon. So I am looking forward to some fun. And is buying silk as well as silver a difficult task or what! You just want to buy everything. And you CANNOT. Damn!

And oh, for the first time I saw what a bummer a dry day is for those who want to go out and have fun on a holiday.

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OP Naiyyar passed away. I love that man’s music. The horses’ tap in the background of every song was awesome. Strangely, it was never annoying as one may think it would be. I hope he rests in peace.

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I finally started making my scrapbook. It’s turning out to be pretty so far.

Just realised that it is a little amusing how some moments turn into memories and others into nightmares.

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Papaji and I had a deal that the next time he goes out of Delhi, I’ll go with him. And his next trip was slated for March. But before that he is going to Kerala and that’s in mid Feb. And I cannot miss college at that time. I hate the situation that I am in!

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I am amazed at how Moninder Singh’s son wants things to be settled outside of UP jurisdiction. Are the parents and families of all those children who got killed ruthlessly idiots? Yes, the whole country knows the current state of law and order in that state but isn’t it in just as deplorable state for those seeking justice? No doubt whatever happened was a slap in the face of all those responsible for administration, etc but I could not help but feel elated by the way that man got beaten. The whole state of things disgusts me too much!

Delhi and Me

In my now usual course of getting late because of laziness in the morning, today I completely forgot that the Republic Day Parade rehearsals begin at 9:15 a.m. That means that bus routes get diverted and for people like me it means that we’re gonna reach college even later.
My bus dropped me quite a distance away from the metro station, so I walked. Good decision of wearing sneakers helped - I was almost jogging. I thought my exercise for the day is done but I was wrong. In the afternoon, I had to go to Patparganj and for that had to change the metro at Kashmere Gate. Looking at the rush I thought I’ll take the stairs instead of the escalator. And two sets of them! I died! If only I could pant with my tongue out! If you haven’t been there, please don’t be surprised. Each of these sets had 5 flights of about 10-12 stairs each. And for someone who has always lived on the ground floor, even one flight of stairs to the first floor is a pain.

Then I saw a completely new part of Delhi. I’d never even heard of places like Kanti Nagar. Chaos is the word to describe those roads. The number of traffic signals on my little route reminded me of South Delhi of 4-5 years back. But really, it felt like I was in some other city. Delhi might be a dot on the map of India but it really IS pretty huge.

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I've also been watching the new season of Kaun Banega Crorepati for the last two days. Our new host is not bad but nothing and nobody can be compared to Amitabh Bachchan. He's just too good. But Shah Rukh Khan is doing it in his own style and his attempts at being funny aren't too bad either.

And well, I'm trying to enjoy the last few days of college life as well. It's nice.

Happy Lohri

Today was a long day. With a mere 4 hours of sleep last night, I was up at 4:00 a.m. There was more of Economic Systems to study. And at the end of it, I felt that I wasn’t really in too bad a state. But the bloody luck! I blanked out during the exam. Looking at the question paper, I knew that I know the answers to certain questions but when I started writing, I could not write. So this one’s down the drain. I don’t know if it is any consolation that a lot of other people did badly too but I’m cool. I am not really too worked up this exam season. I guess all the entrances have made me immune to all kinds of nervousness.
Anyway!

After the exam, Tarun and I went to D School…had some work. And as usual, our long journey back home was fun. It always is.

I have been thinking about my college scrapbook for the past few days. I think I’ll start working on it after the exams. Quite excited about it. I have lots of ideas but there are still quite a few things that I want to decide upon. I’m sure it is going to be a lot of fun.

The evening was supposed to be good fun too. It was one of my cousin’s first Lohri after his wedding. Dad and I went to their place. Almost the whole family had gathered. Talking, singing, getting money, advising my kid brother on his options after 12th, eating popcorn, and simply enjoying...did all of it. Also talked about how our generation has grown up – another 2 years and everybody will be out of school; another few years and the elder most will probably start having kids and another cycle will begin.

Dadi’s back home. Chacha's family came with us because Agneesh wanted some of my books. She was really happy to see all of them and even if for 5 minutes, she did not talk about all her troubles. I wish there was some way to keep her distracted all day.

This was a nice day. There were no extremes and there was a change from the routine. Liked it.

There are a lot of changes that I am noticing around me nowadays. One of them is the way I write. It feels different and not quite in a nice way. I think I know what's amiss and that is something that I don't want to change maybe. But there's something more too and I don't know what that is.

Overstepped The Border

One day before an exam that I am 90% sure of flunking, I am sitting online and reading up ( As if there's isn't already an overdose of it!) things that would give me a clearer idea of what one of the readings are saying about a Marxist idea - Organic Composition of Capital.

Now, who would want to call me a useless Eco student just not fit to appreciate the beauty of the subject?

Damn you, if you did! If not anything else, I am a purist. ( Yeah Amiya, I liked it when you used the word for me :D)

Yin and Yang

Meeting new people can be such an interesting exercise. Over the last one week, I got to interact with many people during my practice group discussions and case studies. Talking to them made me feel that I was in a very useless batch at IMS. The reason why I did not make friends at the institute was not because I had suddenly lost the ability to but because there was nobody with whom I could strike a conversation about anything beyond CAT or the faculty. In fact, I could chat more with my teachers than the people I was surrounded by. Maybe I missed an opportunity but never mind.
The people I met recently included guys who’d been in the sea for three years with the merchant navy and are now looking at an MBA. One of them was so pleasant, so articulate and so intelligent that I did not want to discuss during the GD with anyone but him. Another guy did his engineering from Ferozepur where some of my relatives live. His sense of humour clicked. Abhinav looked at the graphs made in my notebook and told me that they are depicting fiscal expansion. So he guessed that I’m studying Eco but thankfully we did not discuss the subject any further. I got to talk to Shefali and Apoorva who are in the other section in college. I’d not spoken to them in the last 2 years as much as I recently did. Akshay and I got so involved in our talks while another GD was on that the moderator had to check us more than once.
This is turning out to be a nice experience. I can have pleasant, fun conversations without having to think about any sort of shit happening around me...without having to bother about things that irritate me...and without any of the people who know me.

I bought a green nose pin thinking that it was the perfect buy - silver and green together can’t be beaten. But I guess I was kinda wrong. Green is not as basic a colour as I thought it is. My nose pin is not going even with green clothes. I don’t like this. :(

It is funny how one avoids things. I must have written over 300 words till now and what I have been thinking about is not even remotely close to what I have written. I think I’ll write a disgusting thing and I force the mind to frame a positive sentence. I want to write about how shameless and scum-like and fake certain people are but I don’t want to. These people showcase themselves as the ultimate pure souls but what they are is not even humanlike. But no!

I went out for lunch with some school friends yesterday. It’s funny how even though we all know that we’ve been through certain things together and have discussed those earlier as well but still talk about them and have a laugh.
A book reached VIII-D in ’99, boys got blacklisted and the book is still with the teacher who caught it. They want it back.

Hutch decided to be kind to me last night. A 40 minutes’ outstation call went unnoticed. I wasn’t charged for it. Yippee!!! :D

Non-Stop

Everything is running; everyone is running; the time is running; and the work is running too.

As of now, I am just chasing. I think it would be more pleasant once I catch up and can jog along.
Till then, I’m enjoying the thought of struggle. I don’t want that ten years down the line someone comes and says to me that you got things the easy way. I’m slogging. Yeah, so is everyone else but it’s just a nice feeling. Yes, I'm completely exhausted, frustrated, irritable, tired, sleepless, and more at the end of each day. But I think I like it.

I’m finally getting certain things that I deserved to get many years ago. I am also getting things that I don’t think I deserve today. I guess it is some sort of a balance.

I had a lot of fun in college today. Went around hugging people, clicking pictures, laughing out loud, concentrating in class, bugging little pups, having tea and Maggi at Irfan’s after a very very long time, and just feeling good about everything in life.
I wish every day was like today. Happy!

:-)