My latest status message on Facebook reads, 'Richa's love for herself is almost obscene :P'. I am smiling non-stop. No real reason as such, some silly stuff that made me happy. But really, I wonder if everyone is as self-obsessed as I am. Not just that. Happy and no regrets. No qualms about being touchy, impatient, confused, and needy. Can't find a word better than 'obscene'. :D Oh, I also left modesty far behind. Bitch I've become! But I take pride in that too. Tch tch. But indulgence is nice. I've never found anything wrong with it. Not just self-indulgence, but indulging in anything. It comes with its cons, but so does everything else. At least it is fun.
But another fact is that I know other people like me. And I love them! Emotions always running high, and almost out of control too. But maybe the out-of-control happiness makes up for the out-of-control fuck-ups too. We (or I) may wail and howl even when an ant dies, but the happy exciting times are equally action-packed. At times I do feel that exogenous variables should not affect my life so much, but I am not so full of myself either that I can satisfy all needs with the self. A world around me exists, because I believe in the literal meaning of 'theory of relativity'. Being detached from it will probably mean death.
Jayant recently left a comment here saying being crazy seems like an 'in' thing nowadays. Isn't that incredible? :) And people keep asking me if I have always been pagal and if I plan to remain pagal in future too. My answer's always in affirmative. Really, something inside me will be dead if I stop being crazy.
I still have a boring, serious, uninterested side to me too. Some people find that crazy too. Hee..
I don't.
I recently finished reading The Godfather. The book is still on my bed, and so I clicked some random shots around it. Somebody saw the recent images in my camera and said that I should post them all as 'confessions of a bored photographer'. Valid enough. my camera is permanently in the macro mode and I click everything from water bottles' rims to my specs' rims. From coins to notebooks. Everything!!
So here's something that I clicked today. And I am totally in the mood to relate to it too.
Godfather, God, Photography!
Flight
I shall live till the day I live.