Why Today Was a Good Day

1. I got unexpected, indirect compliments. It was nice.

2. I stepped out of office for 10 minutes during the day, and the weather made me very very happy. The chilly air has endorphins in it. (And this stupid americanised english does not identify endorphins as a word. Bleh!)

3. One of my interns got me a chocolate. Not because I made her particularly happy, but simply because she refused to take the money I was giving her while she was going on a break. :D Actually she was just thankful that I let her go on a break. :D :D

4. The same intern asked me how I knew that this is what I wanted to do. And that's when I realised that I had crossed over. Cannot describe the feeling.

Off Limits

Vulnerable men... tch!

Gulbandh

My idea of time has become a little distorted over the past few days. If once I feel that a whole week just hopped past, another time I feel like the first half of a day was really really long ago. Life is nice and busy. The toxins are at a minimum. And I am counting down for my foot's cast to come off now.

The other day I looked at people walking, standing, running at a metro station and they all seemed to have an alien power that I no more seem to have. My knee has only gotten worse because of chikungunya and the pressure it had to take because of this fracture. I almost feel that it will never get better again. Especially because I am not doing anything about it these days.

I have also never felt as unsure of my capabilities as I do today because the level at, and environment in, which I am expected to function is demanding in a way that I didn't imagine it to be. But I am hoping that this experience will also deliver gains with similar exponents.

I was not expecting the weekend to be a weekend. So, to steal a Friday night out and have a relatively relaxed Saturday feels even better than it otherwise would have. Now all that I really need is a nice roadtrip to some place nice and my life would be complete. :D

The Romantic Life

So it rained in NCR today. Some people found the weather to be gloomy. But I loved it. It's the onset of winter!

Then later a different conversation started with a colleague about how picturesque the Pune campus was. And then the thought triggered. About how spending 13 years in the most awesome school, or graduating from the north campus of Delhi University, and living on a hilltop for two years seem oh-so-perfect in retrospect.*

To have had some really amazing men in your list of failed relationships, a very adventurous list of health-related experiences, and the whole process of getting to this 24-point-something moment in life has been very exciting.

I suddenly feel I have been living The Romantic Life all these years, and I am glad that it is a smile-inducing thought at the end of a very tiring day.

*Deleted a happy line about the present. You know which word to insert. :-/

The Sea's Depth

It does not feel good to see a lot of people not appreciate affection, interpret true love, or commit unconditionally. I hope they get whatever it is that they are seeking.

Phew!

I don't think I have been this anxious/tense about anything in the past three years. Maybe even longer. The present is reminding me of board exams and all those life-threatening economics papers. I mean, I feel the need for Mom to sit with me even if she is not contributing to what I am doing. This is really deja vu! The scary one.

Alive, Alive!

It's pressure like never before.

It's learning like never before.

The emotions front..

For a reason, for a reason, for a reason....

Run, Lola, Run!!

So, I'm doing everything from devising media accreditation policies to handling massive databases. From brainstorming for creative material to having my boss scare the shit out of me. Still extremely uncomfortable with the insane amount of work and anxiety, but I am pretty sure I am liking it.