I don't think I have been this anxious/tense about anything in the past three years. Maybe even longer. The present is reminding me of board exams and all those life-threatening economics papers. I mean, I feel the need for Mom to sit with me even if she is not contributing to what I am doing. This is really deja vu! The scary one.
Showing posts with label Pressure. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pressure. Show all posts
Monday, November 15, 2010
Thursday, March 05, 2009
THIS is what it was all about
We were walking up the hill after dinner at the closest dhaba (in celebration of no impending submission the next morning) and talking about how we've gotten comfortable in this place. How an assignment or two don't stress us out. A test next day is fine, we can begin studying in the evening. We were too used to the DU way of working little in the first sem, therefore we used to flip out if there was something unexpected thrown our way. This was less than 10 days ago.
Today, internship period is too close to still not know where you will intern. The semester has been squeezed because the election commission will be undertaking more important work. Visiting faculty is pouring in like they've all been retrenched from their other jobs in one go. Management is suspending the deserving and the So-Not-Deserving people for a period long enough to fuck up their mandatory attendance levels. Previous semester's results have anyway fucked the happiness quotient for many. Submissions and assessments are floating like there really will be no tomorrow. The machines are being churned non-stop, round the clock, with no oil. Private investment needs time which we don't have anymore. The lonely factor is creeping in for most (yes, we find time for that). You hesitate to knock on a door in the hostel lest you'd end up seeing people in a state you want to avoid - for the sake of some mental pressure; more importantly, for those people are family here and it's not nice to see them miserable. Relationships are going for a toss and nobody knows what to do. Hyperventilation comes easy to some of us. We can't put that in self SWOTs but it does end up leading to inability to begin work with a cool head.
There's pressure to say, 'life sucks', and I decide to not succumb to this at least. Other things... I can't comment.
After the not so festive Holi thanks to Kotler, and a couple of weeks after that, I will give you insights from a retrospective point of view. Till then, bear with the asthmatic "aches and pains of an MBA student". :-)
Tada!
Today, internship period is too close to still not know where you will intern. The semester has been squeezed because the election commission will be undertaking more important work. Visiting faculty is pouring in like they've all been retrenched from their other jobs in one go. Management is suspending the deserving and the So-Not-Deserving people for a period long enough to fuck up their mandatory attendance levels. Previous semester's results have anyway fucked the happiness quotient for many. Submissions and assessments are floating like there really will be no tomorrow. The machines are being churned non-stop, round the clock, with no oil. Private investment needs time which we don't have anymore. The lonely factor is creeping in for most (yes, we find time for that). You hesitate to knock on a door in the hostel lest you'd end up seeing people in a state you want to avoid - for the sake of some mental pressure; more importantly, for those people are family here and it's not nice to see them miserable. Relationships are going for a toss and nobody knows what to do. Hyperventilation comes easy to some of us. We can't put that in self SWOTs but it does end up leading to inability to begin work with a cool head.
There's pressure to say, 'life sucks', and I decide to not succumb to this at least. Other things... I can't comment.
After the not so festive Holi thanks to Kotler, and a couple of weeks after that, I will give you insights from a retrospective point of view. Till then, bear with the asthmatic "aches and pains of an MBA student". :-)
Tada!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
WHY?
I am in awe of the human mind and the way the world functions. It is beyond comprehension at times and I wonder if I ever will be equipped to at least understand it if not do anything to contribute positively towards it. And I wonder how so many things seem simplistic to the mind. Is it just me or that's how it is with everybody? What is it that is so complex? Why is the rat race given so much importance? I know I am one of those who do give it importance but today I cannot address a WHY. Why does the world system function the way it does? What difference does it make if it is Keynes who is being followed or Patnaiks of the world who are talking about a different world? There will always be questions that remain unanswered and that is what the job of a question is but there must be solutions too, right?
And if it is affecting not just people whom we feel disconnected from but also our peers, then who really is gaining? But there is an argument that can be put forth for our micro society where people have a degree of freedom and understanding of things - at least we can think and decide for ourselves. So maybe it is only the less privileged who need a system that works for them. But at the same time, how many of us really have the capability to think for ourselves and decide what is right or wrong? Sure it is all relative but do we not need to understand ourselves before questioning the existence of anything else in the world? Or for that matter even taking for granted things that are easily available to us?
If we are all suffering then maybe it is time for social change. But what will the current world give way to? Something more brutal? Need not be, but could be. Would officially be the kalyug and end of the world then, is it?
Waiting for a day when there are more thoughts that answer all these questions. If you can enlighten, please do.
And if it is affecting not just people whom we feel disconnected from but also our peers, then who really is gaining? But there is an argument that can be put forth for our micro society where people have a degree of freedom and understanding of things - at least we can think and decide for ourselves. So maybe it is only the less privileged who need a system that works for them. But at the same time, how many of us really have the capability to think for ourselves and decide what is right or wrong? Sure it is all relative but do we not need to understand ourselves before questioning the existence of anything else in the world? Or for that matter even taking for granted things that are easily available to us?
If we are all suffering then maybe it is time for social change. But what will the current world give way to? Something more brutal? Need not be, but could be. Would officially be the kalyug and end of the world then, is it?
Waiting for a day when there are more thoughts that answer all these questions. If you can enlighten, please do.
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