I have been all over the place
today. This business of having less work is extremely unproductive even if for
a day. I don’t know where I got a cold from again. I am deeply annoyed. Few
things can beat being on good terms with seniors. My manager went on a long
leave yesterday and gave me a pack of Starbucks to enjoy. Of course, it was
just lying in her drawer, but even so. She could have chosen to take it home.
:D Oh yes, I have started having coffee lately. I always feel like going out
and meeting people on days when I get off work early. Today when I do have a
plan which I was excited about, I only feel like going home and sleeping. I
want to sleep for 24 hours, if not less. The loop paid a visit today. Hate that
bitch! Hate this cold too! I got a lot of flowers on my birthday. They made me
happy. Now they are dead. I want more flowers. I want to roll in flowers. Just
like I wanted to lie in those marigold fields in Kerala! Kerala was so
blissful. Why can I not get more of it. Why is life not a paid holiday. I want
to visit a desert now. Cold or hot, does not matter. Just some expanse which I
can lose myself in. I don’t like this ‘control’ nonsense. We should just let
everything flow. Actually, both have their advantages. Letting it flow makes me
happy, and being in control gives a sense of balance. But letting it flow makes
me miserable too. Can I please be selective about it? Keep the happiness, that
is. Ha.
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