Open up

You are taking a personality quiz online and face a question which asks you if you feel people don’t get your problems. You feel silly admitting (even to yourself) that that is true. But when you pop three painkillers in a day (with pure hatred for the concept of painkillers) and find no relief even for an hour, you do wish somebody understood your problem. Because clearly nobody does. And clearly your pain is unbearable. 

Mental pain works the same way. The only difference is that the above is relatively more visible. That is all. And a lot of people do not seem to get it. 

People Matter

I prioritze people over everything else in life. I prioritize people who matter over every other important thing in life. I am yet to meet someone who gets that.

Learning

In the hope of doing, using, consuming something on a better day in future, you lose out on the best opportunities today. That dress won't be in fashion tomorrow. Wear it today. Feel good today. Eat that cheese-filled dish today. Tomorrow your stomach won't even be able to deal with it. Take that trip today. Tomorrow you won't have the time for it. Throw that party today. Tomorrow you won't have friends around to share the moments with. Wear that perfume today. Tomorrow you won’t even like its fragrance as much. Eat that chocolate today. It will expire by the time you go back to it. Express the love today. Life is short.

Go see the tiger. It might become extinct tomorrow. Climb that mountain now. Your knees might not be on your side tomorrow. Visit that far off destination today. Tomorrow there may be war. Have a baby today. Tomorrow you might go broke. Have all the sweets today. Teeth will decay with or without them.

Saving for a home or a rainy day is different. 

Words and emotions

How come you are unable to write even one line when you are feeling choked?

Recently

I was on a flight from Patna to Delhi. Large part of the sector had a view of the Himalayas. I had been on the route last year and craved to be closer to the mountains. Having the same view this time gave an exceedingly satisfying feeling. Of having done it. I really will never get over Ladakh.

I was in Mumbai. A first during the monsoons. Goes without saying that I was dreading the gray and the rain. So much so that the thought of being around the sea did not even cross my mind. But it didn’t rain much, it was not humid, there was a lovely breeze for most part, and it suddenly dawned why people there love this weather. 

I had a meeting on the 35th floor of a building at Nariman Point. The view of the sea left me breathless. 

I got a new pair of sunglasses. I missed having a brown pair. Everyone should own a brown pair once in their lifetime. It gives the world such a lovely hue!

I met Ruchi after about five years or so. I am so glad I decided to spend that one hour with her. It is good to connect with happy fragments of the past. Even if they’re just that.

Suvvir turned one. Bhaiya and Megha made a good decision of not doing a big jing-bang of a party. It was a small gathering, Suvvir was comfortable and happy, and so was I.

I failed a written test. It was discouraging to say the least. 

I paid to go for a photo walk and socialize with strangers. That took the attempts to step out of the comfort zone to another level altogether.

I have been busier than I like.