Kill Me, Will You?

So sciatica is back. After five years. Like I didn't have enough going on already. I am extremely angry and equally depressed! WHAT THE FUCK! 

And there's no sun outside. The rain was nice and pretty for a few days. Need it to bugger off RIGHT NOW!

I think it's time to scream now. 

When People Refuse to Think

Yes, it is not the best policy. Yes, the government has not done anything right in the recent past. But they are right when they say that there cannot be any gain when there has been no mining in those coal blocks. Think about it! You would earn profits only if you are doing business. Criticise them for lack of production in those mines. For not giving requisite clearances in time. For sitting on a policy change for a long time. But what is this sensationalist nonsense about gains that could have been! How can it be a scam. 

JLT

# Beach holidays are far more expensive than those in the mountains
# Facebook might not be as much fun any more, but it still has potential to make you waste hours together
# I think I need a new phone. My fifth Samsung!
# It's been a year since the dreamy Orchha trip
# I need more money
# Blogger.com is testing my patience
# I have happily taken a due compensatory off for my birthday. But I have no plans.
# Clearly, I have wasted the entire weekend in front of my laptop
# Dell still rocks!
# I talk a LOT when with my latest doctor
# Grey's Anatomy taught me that surgeons love opening people up before I learned that in real life
# I like second half of a year more than the first half
# Going by how much I spend on doctors' fees, I will never be able to buy a new lens
# The other day somebody repeated after me that I have been single for over three years :O
# I want to go dancing
# I can't believe I have still not seen Ice Age 4
# I am always smiling when the the little baby is around
# Till now nobody's clicked a nice picture of him and me together
# I think I can waste the next two days in front of my laptop too
# I want someone to write me a nice, long email
# Did I mention that I have a nice boss?

Bhu!

Mister still does not have a name. Apparently, I have (according to tradition) the right to name him. But of course, I do not have the final say. 

I had mixed feelings about him before he was born. He was going to take my place (yeah, I know, silly!). He was going to make noise (that's an understatement in the current context). And well, I am generally not known to be the one going gaga over little kids. But I think I was excited the day he was born. 

I had never held a baby before him. It was a big deal. And now I can proudly announce that I can walk with him in my arms. He expects it. Or he takes the noise weapon out. His other weapons are more involuntary right now. I can't deny having been attacked though. 

He loves bathing. That is really the best time to be with him. So calm. So patient. 

But overall, ladka chant hai!

Seen here, the occasional cuteness.

And I have figured that I do not mind little kids. It is still some time before I would feel ready for having one of my own. So the pace at which I am moving seems quite okay for now.

Approaching Bankruptcy

एक होते हैं भुक्कड़
और एक होते हैं महाभुक्कड़ !

मैं?


:D

Source: Google

Love

It was a dream. 

We were perfect together. 

We could have gone for those trips. 

We could have talked through the nights. 

We could have kept the dog. 

We could have been together. 

We could have had it all. 

Losing Faith.

Blinkers

I often remember the madness with which I studied for my 12th standard exams. SRCC is all that I could think about. Every single day. That is all I wanted. It was true madness. I didn't know what I wanted to make of that opportunity. All I knew was that I wanted to be there. 

Just saw one of the books from back then. There was pep talk on its last page. Pep talk for a distracted mind. And it had SRCC all over it. 

I have not been able to put in that kind of effort in anything, again. I have not been as prepared. It was another zone altogether!  I wonder how things were so absolute back then. While I did lose sleep calculating how many marks an examiner could deduct, things were absolute and I was confident nobody could give me marks any less than what I finally scored. 

I want to do it once again. Miss that high.  

Nobody Understands

I am a hypochondriac. I can deny it by elaborating all the issues and symptoms I deal with. Or I can be in denial about my issues by getting a certificate for hypochondria. I don't know which one is better. I do know that some days are hard. And I think if someone diagnoses some kind of a cancer in me, I will be relieved, not distressed.

Aspiration

This is what I want for my 30th birthday. 

Source: Google

For now, I am just hoping to not get depressed around the upcoming birthday.

Jeeva!

I'm on a second trip to Odisha. Last time it was Bhubaneswar, Cuttack and Konark. This time, apart from Bhubaneswar, I've visited Jajpur. And there might be one more place to see. And I like what I have seen so far.

Things I've seen and liked so far:
# The Soura art
# Lush green paddy fields
# Smooth roads on NH5
# The massive Mahanadi
# Art work on city walls
# The few good restaurants I have visited in Bhubaneswar
# The to-die-for saris and dupattas

On neither of my trips I carried my camera. Feel a little bad about it. But clearly travelling light takes very high priority, especially when it is for work. Nonetheless, there are some pictures from my phone camera. Today's drive was beautiful. Yes, I can appreciate rain too.



Let's see what's next.

One idiot to the other

Sometimes the government really thinks we are stupid. 

"Veerappa Moily takes charge of Power Ministry, says 24X7 monitoring will ensure constant vigil against power crashes!" As if THIS is the real issue with the power sector!

Nobody can take ownership of the tariffs. Nobody can take ownership of international relations. Nobody can solve fuel supply issue; just make a drama out of the short-term CIL nonsense. And then say things like these! Bunch of morons!