And it's a wrap!

But there still was a lot that I managed to do this year. 

# I climbed 13,500 feet of a mountain topped with snow. Can I write this in all caps? No big deal, I know. But it is a personal achievement. Massive.

# I experienced the magic of Ladakh. Pure love. 

# I got to watch Zakir Hussain, live, again. The man is magic.

# Attended my first 7.30 am south Indian wedding

# Accepted to face an issue and sought help

# Almost drowned

# Sneaked out of home one night for the first time

# Dealt with dad’s illness

# Voted for change

# Saw the white desert

# AGAIN did not see through the process of getting my driver’s license

# Did far fewer stupid things

# Stayed in a house boat

# Met a stranger for chai and realised there are others who are struggling more

# Struck a conversation with another stranger only to realise it is very hard to get someone to know me now

# Saw Bombay from the 35th floor of a Nariman Point building

# Had people send me flowers from beyond international borders

# Participated in a theatre workshop

# Tried very hard to find a new job

# Lost sleep

# Lost another person who I thought was a close friend 

# Joined a dating platform only to find every other interesting person uninteresting

# Danced a choreographed dance

# Attended exactly one month of salsa lessons

# Hard work in office got acknowledged 

# Fell in love with Harvey Specter

# Got closure

# Watched Suvvir grow into a monster baby

# Wanted to marry, was asked for marriage for wrong reasons, watched some great people come together in marriage, saw some close people’s marriages fall apart

# Bought a new lens

# Experienced massive lows at work

# Continued to struggle on the health front

# Bought and wore a lot of bling clothes

# Significant cut-down of alcohol also happened this year

# Rode an elephant after more than a decade

2014 is expected to bring newness. I honestly do not know if this blog will see through its eighth year, but I do hope it does. 

Another Year

End of last year, I felt I don't know what to expect from 2013. At all. It felt like I am approaching a blind turn. But I did not know if I should be slowing down.

I did not slow down. But I waited for things to change. I became the person who is too anxious about the future to live in the moment. Everyday decisions became a factor of unknown variables of the future. I never thought I would be this person, but I am. And today, I am aware of likely events of the future which will bring big change. But because nothing is certain as yet, I am just sitting and cracking my knuckles. Growing up, among other things, has made me more cautious and boring. 

Moment of doubt

How do you deal with the world on the day that you realise you are no longer the person you have been all your life?

And I Wonder

For a few years now, I have related well with the phrase, “let it flow”. Sometimes I have tried to resist that flow, but on most occasions I have drifted along. Because I don’t think it is a matter of choice. Life has taken its own course. 

But these days I feel differently. I am hanging by threads that could snap any moment. I have no idea which ones to hold on to. I am not sure what choices to make. I am afraid I would fall. Again.